how to say out??

these days i am very confused...
dunno want to say out that word o not~
if i am the one who goes and say with her~
and she dunt want to bother...
it will be a shemeful things...
but if i am waiting for her to come and says...
it will be after many years only happened~
but i think i will be the one who take action first...
although it is not my fault...
if my ah pa they all knows it,
what will be their reactions??
may be ah pa will support me...
but dunt know the others will support me o not~
but our friendship last for many years already....
now....
its because what untill we become enemy??
i also dont know~